You Won't Silent My Song

Please be aware I'm about to open up and get emotional. I'm about to express my thoughts and feelings openly to a bunch of people (if there's even a bunch of people who visits my site) that may and may not know me and vice versa. I've been extremely quiet about this for many reasons. I love having my privacy and also for the privacy of others I've hesitated to speak on this and I will still leave their names out. This has been an amazing and emotional year for me. I've made many mistakes over the years and those mistakes made me a better person. I've discovered myself, I've discovered inner happiness. It's pure, no expectations, I can give love without expecting it in return, I can help without expecting it in return. And if the people I chose to love breaks my heart friends/lovers I have nothing against them, I'll let them take it and we can move on our way, my gift to you. 

I've always knew once you get it together everything will just fall into place. I have the perfect selection of friends on my side, you are the company you keep. I've been traveling. I met a girl after 10 years of being single. Everything was going great, I was highest than my high. Then a door opened to something new to me, something I've never had to deal with before, DEPRESSION. I read up on it, studied it to understand it, so I can learn how to act or deal with it. Why was it so important to me? I learned that the people I love so dearly are dealing with it. It hurts me to see them like that and it hurts me cuz it took a lot away from me. And I know depression took alot from YOU too. I'm finally speaking on it because I need to express my feelings, my happiness, my sadness, my ups and down. I get visions and ideas in my head for photographs, if I don't act on it it would keep me up at night, all night. Just staring at the ceiling. So I know you've noticed I haven't blog much, or taken photos. I recently started doing it, because I wasn't happy you guys, I need a time out for a second and recover. I'm slowly getting back on my feet with the support of my friends (I love ya'll), and back to blogging and sharing. My heart is still filled with love and I'm ready to spread them. I'm currently exploited my recent mood, sadness and came up with a short photo series "Sadness Is A Blessing." I listen to a lot of music and sometimes a line or title to a song gives me ideas. I dedicate this photo series to those who are/were dealing with depression. My idea is to capture a person/subject holding a flower in front of a colorful wall, behind all this beauty lies a dark story, hidden somewhere in that person. I hope my love and support helps a bit, you can email or call me anytime if you ever need anyone to talk to. Peace. 

Thanks Jess for taking the time to model for me. Shot with my iPhone 7 for the blog. 

Thanks Jess for taking the time to model for me. Shot with my iPhone 7 for the blog. 

Now I can't complete a blog post without a food post right? Jess never been to Salud before and it's safe to say she loved it. We shot at a pink building new by. Not at the pink church though, because they didn't want us to use their wall because they were afraid we would do something x-rated. Well out of respect we moved on and found a pink wall one block away. 

Dope shirt, but the reason why I thought I had to share. It was like a sign, I saw this design on a car on my way to Jess's house. Then at Salud this man was wearing "BLESSD" on his shirt. Universe is remind me that I'm blessed? I'll listen. 

Dope shirt, but the reason why I thought I had to share. It was like a sign, I saw this design on a car on my way to Jess's house. Then at Salud this man was wearing "BLESSD" on his shirt. Universe is remind me that I'm blessed? I'll listen. 

Hooch Horchata. 

Hooch Horchata. 

Carne Asada Nachos. 

Carne Asada Nachos. 

Yooo !! I had to stop by Por Vida for my Spicy Sandia Lemonada fix! 

Yooo !! I had to stop by Por Vida for my Spicy Sandia Lemonada fix!